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A #4: My Standardized Imaginings

A. INTERIOR DIALOGUE

(i) Overlays of Comments to Self

"After I was through with the exam and just when I handed in my paper, I knew that I shouldn't have changed my answer to one of the questions. Inside of me I could feel a sense of frustration and anger at myself because I wanted to do especially well on this exam. I keep on thinking to myself why I had changed the answer but after I read the question over my views started switching. It's good to review your answers but sometimes when you read it over you begin to feel doubtful, just like how I felt."

(ii) Value Expressions

"I am sitting down on the dining table waiting for dinner. I notice that we are having liver for dinner and inside of me I can hear my stomach saying, "no!" I make a funny look on my face and I can hear my mother saying that it's good for me. I think to myself how awful it will taste and wished that I didn't have to eat it."

(iii) Preparing Schedules

"As I am driving home in this afternoon traffic I am thinking of what I have to do when I go home and what needs to be done first. I decide that I must cook dinner first, then clean-up the dishes, then take a bath, and then do some studying. I am thinking to myself that I wish I could skip all of this and just go home and relax."

(iv) Reviewing/Making Plans and Lists

"I am sitting in my bedroom trying to decide on what I'll be wearing and the things that I'll have to be doing on the day of my brother's wedding, As I think about that day I begin to feel more and more excited about the whole event. I can picture how beautiful the church will look and how happy everyone will be. But, I can also feel a very busy day coming."

(v) Emotionalizing Episodes

"Just this morning I had an upsetting conversation with my brother. Everytime I think about it I begin to feel disappointed and hurt of what he said to me. I wish it never happened because I can't help but think about it continuously. This kind of feelings often stay with me for sometime until it gets cleared up.

(vi) Rehearsals and Practicings

"Tomorrow afternoon I will be making a speech in front of the whole class, so right now I am practicing for it. As I rehearse my lines I begin to feel anxious and nervous about the whole thing. I begin to think about all the awful things that could happen while I give the speech. Yuck! I wish that I wouldn't have to do it."

(vii) Annotations, Memorizings, Editings

"I am trying to memorize a list of words and its stressed accents. While I am doing this though, I feel it is a waste of time because I do not especially stress words as I talk nor have I spoken to anyone who does this also. However my teacher who thinks that local people needs this practlce expects us to say it accordingly. I think to myself that it isn't very necessary as long as the word is understood by the person I am saying it to."

(viii) Unmentionables Within the Relationship

"I was having lunch with my girlfriend when all of a sudden I smelled something awfully strong. I turned around to see where it was coming from and I see my girlfriend's father smoking a cigar. He starts walking towards us and sits right next to me. He starts talking to me and smokes that cigar towards my direction. I wish I could tell him not to smoke near me because I can't stand the smell but I guess this is just one of those things you don't mention, but tolerate. Shucks!"

A #4: My Standardized Imaginings

B. FEELING ARGUMENTS

(i) Figuring out a Conflict

"It's Saturday night and I just came home from work. My boyfriend called and asked me if I wanted to go and see a movie. I want to go but, I really think that I should stay home and study because next week I have three exams. Oh, but I really wanted to see this movie and I'm not sure if it'll still be on next weekend. Should I go to the movie or should I stay home and study for my exams? Ah, the movie will probably go to another theater and I'll get a chance to see it then, I'd better be a good kid and study."

(ii) Making Resolutions

"Well this year my resolution was to better myself by being more patient with people and to learn to cope with the tough days that I have. I must learn to consider it as a learning experience or even to know that life won't always be as rough as that day."

A #4: My Standardized Imaginings

C. FANTASY/DAYDREAM EPISODES

(i) Elaborations of Dramatized Scenarios

"I am watching the news and it is showing the White House and the beauty of it all. A commercial comes on but I start to imagine myself as living there. I see myself entertaining my friends for dinner on a table 8 ft. long. We are eating and having an exciting time ringing the bell for more service. Then all of a sudden the news comes back on and I have myself back into reality living in my own cozy home without any maids or butlers."

(ii) Construction of Catharsis Stories

"I am having a hard time understanding this entry. So the only thing I could think about is my fear of dying. I am afraid of death and I often find myself thinking about the sad things of it. But, then I thought to myself that I shouldn't feel this way because I don't really know what it'll be like, who knows it may be the most beautiful thing in life for me."

(iii) Re-contacting Nostalgic Memories

"I am in my yard pulling weeds and I begin to think about when I was a little girl. I used to gather some weeds, rocks, and soil mix it with water and pretend that it was some kind of vegetable soup. Then I would make some mud patties and sprinkle some of the leaves from the weeds on top of the patties, to pretend that it was hamburgers. It's a wonder all the different dishes I use to make with weeds, rocks, and soil. But, now the weeds are nothing but nusances."

(iv) Working out Alternative Realities

"I am in class listening to a boring lecture. My mind, however, is still at the party that I went to this past weekend. I had a nice time and I wish we (my friends and I) could get together like that more often. I remembered a joke that Paul told me and I start to smile about it in class. I'm in two worlds now. Part of me is at a party and the other part of me is in class. The bell rings and I start to walk out of class."

A #4: My Standardized Imaginings

D. THE ELEVATED REGISTER

(i) Praying/Invocations

"God, if there is ever a time when I needed your help so badly it is now. I don't think I studied hard enough for this exam and it may turn out that I may not do to good so, please help me."

(ii) Altered States of Conciousness

"I am practicing my hula and dancing to some really mellow music. I find myself drifting into a relaxed state, free of tension. I feel freedom....... "

(iii) Meditations/Readings of Scriptures

"I am sitting on the beach watching the waves gently cover the shore and then return back into the vast ocean. My mind begins to float away with the waves as I continue to watch the sea. All of my senses have seemed to disappear for just a few moments but then I find myself back on the beach and back into reality."

(iv) Poetic Expressions

"This poem was given to me from one of my girlfriends, during a time when I was really down.

"With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be careful. Strive to be happy."

My Standardized Imaginings

E. ROUTINE CONCERNS: SELECTED INVENTORIES

(a) from the EYES of Particular Others

"My boyfriend and I are having dinner at this restaurant near our house. Our meal came and I take a bite from the spaghetti that I had ordered. I make a funny face while I am eating the spaghetti because the sauce has a bland taste. I turn and look to see if the waiter saw me make that funny face but he didn't because he was waiting on someone else."

(b) from the NOSE of particular Others

"As I was talking to my boyfriend just when I woke-up this morning, I was trying to avoid talking to him closely because I knew my breathe didn't smell like roses. I tried to stay as far back from him as I could. But I also tried to make it the least obvious as I could. Does he or doesn't he notice?"

(c) from the EARS of particular Others

"We were early for class today so my girlfriend and I was talking about our teacher and how unfair she is. We were talking and talking then all of a sudden she walks in and I look at hoping that she didn't hear us. It didn't seem as she did because all she did was say good-morning and sat down."

(d) from the KNOWLEDGE of particular Others

(1) involving your ACTIVITIES (Places, People, Purchases, Bills, etc.)

"We were all playing tennis at the courts, when Jeff started saying that we were playing wrong. But my other friends and I said that we weren't. Jeff gave his reasons and we gave ours. But being that Jeff has been playing tennis longer than we have, we listened to him and didn't press the issue."

(2) involving your IDEAS (Memories, Attitudes, Opinions)

"Sandy and I started talking about the different religions. She brought out the good points of her beliefs in her religion,but because I have my own beliefs I had a hard time accepting her views. But then I thought that everyone was entitled to whatever they wanted to believe in and Sandy being no exception. I was careful in what I said and slowly switched the subject."

A #4: My Standardized Imaginings

E. ROUTINE CONCERNS. SELECTED INVENTORIES

(ii) Informations Record Keeping

(a) Schedules

"My school schedule for the week is

Monday, Wednesday, and Friday

9:30-10:20 Microbiology

Tuesday and Thursday

9:OO-10:l5 Human Development

12:00-1:l5 Psychology

1:30-3:30 Microbiology Lab"

(b) Shopping Lists

"This weeks shopping list was:

4. hamburger and chicken

5. all kinds of vegetables

8. sandwich meat

10. toilet paper and kleenex

A #4: My Standardized Imaginings

E. ROUTINE C0NCERNS: SELECTED INVENTORIES

(ii) Information: Record Keeping

(c) Dates and Address Book

"If anyone wanted to read my address book they would

find the following information in it:

1. There are 20 names in it

2. Only six of them has addresses next to them

3. The remaining 14 of them has telephone numbers next to them.

4. The book has a picture of a little girl and boy writing on papers.

5. It is 3 x 4 inches.

6. You can find it in my bag because I carry it wherever I go."

(d) Biographical (diary, resolutions, notes, etc . )

"I don't keep any diary's of myself except when I do feel like writing down something that happened to me I usually write it on folder paper and store it in my drawer."

A #5: My Community of Relationships

A. NOTICING OBSERVATIONS

(i) Visual Sightings

(a) Physical State/Appearance of Things in Places

"While I was taking my dog out for a walk I noticed that a house directly behind ours was being built. The builders were in the process of putting the frame up."

(b) Change in Normalcy Signs

"As I was driving home from school I noticed that a house, just a couple of blocks away from where I live, was swarmed with people crying and a couple of cops appearing to be investigating. The cops were talking to the owner of the house and it looked as if he were asking him questions. I went home and I found out from my father that the owner's (a man) wife had died in a car accident earlier that day."

(c) Weather, etc.

"It was beautiful morning with the sun shining out and the sky being a soft color of light blue. And now (early afternoon) as I look out of the window I noticed that it has begun to drizzle and I can imagine that it will soon begin to pour because the sky is covered with a dark and gloomy black patch."

A #5: My Community of Relationships

A. NOTICING OBSERVATIONS

(i) Visual Sightings

(d) People in Public Places

"While we (my boyfriend and I) were having a late snack at this restaurant in Waikiki, I couldn't help but notice a guy sitting next to us. First, he had his meal then after he was through he picked up the salt shaker and started sprinkling salt into his mouth. I know that he wasn't playing around because his date that he was with didn't react surprisingly nor did she laugh jokingly, Later I thought to myself it may have been a custom or nature of his race."

A #5: My Community of Relationships

NOTICING OBSERVATIONS

(ii) Relationship Events

(a) Noticeables About People You Know (physical appearance, mood, etc.)

1. Unmentionables Within the Relationship

"I noticed that whenever Stacie is with me or all of my girlfriends she is the most talkative and open person, but when a guy comes to talk to her she quickly withdraws from that friendly personality to a more quiet and shy one."

2. Unmentionables Within the Relationship

"Mike was talking to me about what had happened to him today at work, as we were sitting in his car. I noticed that he had changed the covering on his seat. I wanted to ask him where he had it done and that it was done very well, but he seemed to involved in wanting to tell me what went on at work. He sounded so excited that I didn't want to interrupt him or change the subject."

(b) Territoriality (hang outs, rights and privileges, reputation, etc.)

"Every Sunday I try to go down to the community recreation center. The center is only open to the people of the community that we live so it's good because it doesn't get jammed with a whole bunch of people. There are many things to do, like: swimming, tennis, basketball, volleyball, sauna, exercise room and so many more other things. I especially enjoy the pool because its big and I haven't ever seen it packed with people. Above all it's a good place to go and relax."

A #5 My Community of Relationships

A. NOTICING OBSERVATIONS

(iii) Auditory Pickings-up

(a) Overheard Snatches of Talk

"As I was sitting in one of my classes waiting for it to begin, two girls sitting in front of me were talking about their acceptance into the nursing school. One girl was so happy for another and that girl was so happy and relieved for herself."

(b) Sounds, Noises, etc.

"I'm sitting in Sinclair library trying to listen to various sounds. After a few minutes of listening I came down with this list.

1. People walking.

2. Papers rustling.

3. Copy machine running.

4. Air conditioner.

5. People talking.

6. Dropping of books.

7. Coughing and Sneezing.

8. Someone walking in and pushing the entrance railing forward.

These were just a few of the things I heard for just the short time that I was listening but if I was to listen for a longer time I would have heard a lot more different sounds."

A #5 My Community of Relationships

B. DESCRIPTION OF TRANSACTIONS

( i) Gossiping

"My girlfriend and I were talking about her brother, who she feels is irresponsible and careless. She tells me all the wrong things that he does and although he knows that he is doing wrong he doesn't take the initiative to correct himself. This bothers my girlfriend very much so she tells me about it."

(ii) Catching up on News

"I didn't see my boyfriend for about a week and then just today he gave me a call. We talked for about two hours and we still felt that there was more to be talked about. Some of the topics that we spoke about were our work or school occurences, about his car, about my parents, about his dog and some other things like that."

(iii) Having an Argument

"My brother and I was having a silly argument on who was going to empty the rubbish. I felt that because I was dusting and vacuuming the house he should at least empty the rubbish. On the other hand he felt that because there was an exciting tennis match on the television he needed to watch it to learn some skills that he himself could use."

(iv) Joking

"On Friday, as I was driving home,I was listening to KKUA radio station and I heard a joke that a caller told the disc jockey. Although it was a stupid joke I still was laughing to myself about it. The more I thought about it the funnier it seemed."

(v) Exchanging Information

"When I saw my girlfriend Monday morning she had a lot of things to tell me about her weekend and I also had some things to tell her about my weekend. We both had a nice weekend and we wanted to share with each other the exciting things that had happened."

(vi) Making Arrangements

"Michelle and I are planning to go away this summer but there are so many things we have to do before we leave. So we are now listing all the things we must do and the people we must call before laving. Although there are a lot of things to be done, it will make the trip more enjoyable knowing that everything should go alright. We both are happy to be going on a vacation because it should be very relaxing."

(vii) Working out a Problem

"I am having a party this coming weekend and I'm having a difficult time deciding on who to invite. I'd like to invite everyone but because of financial reasons I cannot. And I can't just invite some people because if the others find out they may feel hurt. It's hard to decide but I know that I'll probably end up inviting a few people and hope that the others will understand. Or else the others that I couldn't invite could come after dinner and just have some drinks or something."

(viii) Sharing Secrets/Confessions

"Stacie had found out that one of our girlfriends were getting married because she had to, because she was pregnant. This girlfriend of ours didn't mention this occasion to anyone so I guess she wanted to keep it a secret maybe because she was embarrassed. I hope she doesn't feel this way because she has nothing to be shameful about."

(ix) Routine Reviews/News of the Day

"Nothing really exciting happened today. It was just a regular school day and going to work after."

A #5: My Community of Relationships

C. REPORTING JOINT ACTIVITIES

(i) Doing Something With (dates, appointments, etc.)

"This past Sunday my boyfriend and I went to Waimea Falls for our first time. It was so beautiful, with greenery filling the whole area. One could either ride a train going to the falls or hike-up. We hiked-up but it was an easy and short hike. If ever you are looking for a place to relax and want to enjoy some quiet then I suggest that this is the place to go."

(ii) Telephone Calls

"I just received a phone call from a male prank caller. It wasn't a pleasant person so I won't mention what was said. But as soon as he said it I laughed at him and then told him a few of my own comments."

(iii) Writing/ Receiving Notes, Letters, Memos Ads, etc.

"It's been so long since the last time I've written to my girlfriend in the mainland. This is probably why I haven't been receiving any letter from her."

(iv) Paying Bills

"There aren't any bills that need to be paid but I do owe some money to my mother. I borrowed from her a couple of dollars for my tuition but haven't had any money to pay her back with."

A #5: My Community of Relationships

D. NON-JOINT ACTIVITIES

(i) Doing a Task for Another Person

"At work, where I am a volunteer, I was fixing a patients bed that one of the nurses didn't have a chance to do because she was busy tending to other things that needed to be done in a hurry."

(ii) Buying a Gift for Another Person

"My mom's birthday was this past Friday and I had decided to get her something different this year instead of the usual idea of getting her clothes. So I bought her a rust colored wallet and cigarette case to match. And then I bought her a dozen red roses, knowing how much she loves flowers."

(iii) Mentioning a Person to Someone

"Today as I was talking to Michelle I asked her if she talked or seen our girlfriend Sharon lately. I haven't seen her in a long time and I was just wondering what she's been doing and if she was fine."

(iv) Avoiding a Person

"As I was walking at the Shopping Center today I noticed my dentist walking towards my way but I didn't want to see him because every time he sees me he says that I'm due for a check-up again. Although I know that I need to go I would like to go when I am ready. I try to avoid seeing him by turning my head to the side and quickly walk pass him."

(v) Going to See/Looking for a Person

"I am driving to my boyfriend's house to have lunch with him. It's a thirty minutes drive from my house to his. Although it may seem far it isn't really once you get use to it."

(vi) Having a Mental Exchange with Someone

"I didn't see Amy for years and just the other day I ran into her at the market. We stopped and chatted for a little while. I could feel that there was this looking over and inner thinkings by both of us. This was probably due to the reason that we hadn't seen each other in a long time and also because we both had changed a great deal since high school days.

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